FH Clinic (6/21)

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

Susan had the clinic open around noon, and was doing a crossword puzzle, and hoping that the present she got for Lorelai's baby shower was appopriate. It just seemed very *her*, somehow.

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[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

Cameron smiled. "A whole lot better than the last time you saw me."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"I'm so glad to hear that." She gestured to the couch. "What in particular made this a better week?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

Cameron plopped down on the couch and scratched his head as he considered it. "A couple of things really. I managed to have a not so awkward conversation with Aeryn. I realised that I do still have friends and didn't screw up as badly as I thought I did, even if I did screw up on some levels. I can kiss Molly now without going into a guilt complex and I know I'm working on stuff so yeah..."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"A good week. Progress being made." She tilted her head. "Did you write down your memories, as we talked about?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

"Sort of," he replied as he pulled a piece of paper (http://cameronmitchell.livejournal.com/73695.html) out of his pocket and got up to hand it to her. "I didn't have any relevant dreams so I just wrote down the gist of it."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

Susan read them, frowning. "As an exercise in psychological torture, it's almost textbook. Isolation, guilt, horrors that can't be prevented..." Her lips thinned, then firmed. "But I see that you're already poking holes in the scenarios they constructed. I'm very pleased to see that."

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

"Aeryn argued that their scenario was lacking weetiny bunnies," Cameron said with a rueful smile. "I think talking to my father helped most. They just took what was going on in my head and blew it out of proportion."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"I'm *very* glad to hear that." Susan re-folded the note, and handed it back to him. "Also, the sheer number of incidents breaks the plausibility, although I know there was no way you could tell that at the time." She sat back, taking a few notes. "Are the memories still fading away, as they were before?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

"They did spread it out over more than a decade," Cameron said as he folded up the paper. "The things they used as fillers are mostly gone. It's pretty much like you know you had a dream and any time you think you're going to remember, it just disappears again. These," he said as he held up the piece of paper, "they're hard to forget."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"I can see why." Susan folded her hands, studying him. "But you're reconnecting with your old life, too. I'm sure that's helping. You mentioned Molly? That you've decided to pursue a relationship with her?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

Cameron blushed and tucked the paper away again. "Yeah. We're taking it slowly. Babysteps slowly. Snail pace slow." He felt strongly about the slow part.

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

Susan pressed her fingers to her mouth, stifling a chuckle. "Ah. And slow is good. And different from your relationships with Vala and Jaye, specifically, how?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

"I dived right in with Vala. Eyes closed, head first," he said sadly. "Jaye was a fling first. It wasn't supposed to be serious. When we tried to make it more, it just fell apart."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"And you're already friends with Molly. Good friends. So a tiny step forward-- that assures that you're both ready for it." Susan smiled. "I'm glad. You mentioned Aeryn, as well. How is that going?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

"It's different now," he said with a small shrug. "I miss that friendship and I still trust her, so it's weird talking to her and knowing she doesn't anymore. I guess things changed a while ago, I just didn't want to notice it. I'd like to rebuild things and if we can talk again like we did this weekend, that'd be great."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"I'm glad. As you said, slow." Susan tapped her pen on the arm of her chair. "Have you been having the nightmare lately? Or is it still only occasional?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

"A lot less," Cameron replied. "Mostly when I'm stressed out, but I haven't had it in a while now. There was an exhibition on Antartica when we were in DC. It's actually pretty when you're not diving in nose first."

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"Stick with the exercise regimen, if that works for you. Did you ever figure out if the meditation tape had any effect for you? I shan't push it, if it's not helping."

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

Cameron looked sheepish. "It's great for insomania," he confessed.

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

Susan laughed a little. "Good! I'm pleased to hear it. Was there anything else bothering you that you wished to discuss?"

[cameronmitchell.livejournal.com]

"No, I think I'm good," Cameron said with a smile. This had ben easier than he expected.

[susanofnarnia.livejournal.com]

"Good. I'll see you next week, then. You know how to contact me if you need to talk sooner."