http://susanofnarnia.livejournal.com/ ([identity profile] susanofnarnia.livejournal.com) wrote in [community profile] fandom_clinic2006-05-22 04:24 pm

FH Clinic (5/22)

Susan opened the clinic, and then decided to wait on the front stoop, because it was too nice to stay inside. Tyler was supposed to be by, and she was half-hoping Janet or Sam would stop in before or after he got there-- they had a *lot* to talk about.

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-22 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
A few minutes after his appointment time, Tyler came back to the clinic and walked up to the woman, a little tentatively. "Hi, I'm trying to find Dr. Pevensie."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler coolly assessed the woman before taking her hand in a shake. "If you want," he said, indicating the clinic.

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler took a deep breath. "You tell me," he said. "I mean, I feel fine. Other than that the meds Dr. Troy gave me make me want to puke my guts out every night."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler closed his eyes, thinking. "I'm sleeping. Which is actually kind of a newish experience. And yeah, I keep food down as long as I eat slow. No blurred vision."

He rubbed his temple. "I did have a little headache Sunday."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 12:57 am (UTC)(link)
"No," Tyler said, rapidly. "I mean, I drink, but not to that point."

Tyler said drinking and drugs were just another way to shut the world out, fight clubs for the weak.

He held out his hands, palms up, then bit his lip. "So do the files they sent you have everything? I'm just curious what Bates told you."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler had an internal debate but decided not to plead ignorance. Or ask what else it might say.

"It means you couldn't decide whether I just have an imaginary friend, or whether I'm also really crazy," he said. "That about it?"

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 01:17 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler touched his fingers lightly to his lips and averted his gaze. "Do you want to know what I think? Usually you guys just like to hear yourselves talk."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
"Huh," Tyler said. "So that's what the drugs are supposed to do. Numb the chaos so all of this is easier to live with."

He ran a hand through his hair. "And so I don't do anything that could hurt people again."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler stared at his shoes for a long moment. "Yeah," he said. "It kind of all came back, at the end."

"I'm not ashamed of everything we did," he said. "Everything I did. But if I knew where it would lead, I would never-" he shook his head.

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 03:12 am (UTC)(link)
"That reality was a reason to live," Tyler said, quietly and honestly, blue eyes fixed on Susan. "It was my best friend. My everything."

He stood. "Does it matter if I say I don't feel schizophrenic?"

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 03:31 am (UTC)(link)
"Whee," Tyler said sardonaically. "What if I still like mine better?"

"And point. I guess I just think schizophrenia sounds crazier, you know? I held a job, I lead people, I ....okay, I talked to myself, but I wasn't panhandling or claiming there was an antenna in my brain."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 03:51 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler nodded. "Um, last time I went off the pills, before I came here, was when Tyler came back," he said. "He almost blew us up."

"But tapering off might work better. I hope."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 03:57 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler made a face and muttered something under his breath about journals being for girls and Conor Oberst. But he didn't look entirely unhappy. "Keep a journal, check in next Monday," he said. "I can do that."

[identity profile] tyler-gone.livejournal.com 2006-05-23 04:05 am (UTC)(link)
Tyler fingered the card. 'No questions," he said. "See you Monday."

He left the office and headed back to the campgrounds, feeling vaguely unsettled.